My Final Attempt

I have nothing to gain
for i lost it all, i lost my life
i lost my friends, and family
and now I'm lost to suicide

everyone says life's just a test
but it's a hard one for me
I've never dealt with things like this
sometimes i feel like i cant breathe

i feel alone in this world
and I'm sick of everyone teasing me
i go home everyday and cry
i cry a thousand tears, because what they say to me

I'm falling further everyday
drifting into my thoughts
when everyone reads this
they'll think it's a joke..but it's not

I'm tired, i cant try anymore
I've tried to belong
and I've been planning this day
for so very long

so this is my last poem
filled with my pain
all my feelings and thoughts inside,
without my angel..nothing will be the same

this is my fourth and last attempt
it'll be over at midnight
larochelle, mike, don't end up like me
don't loose to suicide

* i love you guys, and everyone on this site who has helped me. and I'm really sorry, you guys where my only family...i found out my friend died tonight, he's been having heart problems, and it seems like without him, my life cant go on..*