I’m going to tell a secret to you

I wish that someone would hear my cries of pain
This happy mask I wear is getting so hard to maintain
I’m going to tell a secret to you
I think the explanation is well overdue

I hide the real me inside a small shell
I make my life look like heaven when really it’s an addition to hell
Keeping people out is my specialty
Keeping them from the real me

Under all the makeup and clothes there are fresh wounds and white scars
I’ve sat out naked letting them bleed under the stars
I keep the invisible walls up all around me
They keep building higher, why cant you see?

I pick up the razor put it in place and begin
Bleeding out the agonizing pain from within
I can stifle the screams but not the tears
Nobody would have thought this of me even my parents who knew me for 13 years

As I lay on the floor making no effort to stop the blood flow
My godforsaken life seems so long ago
It ends here, right now, tonight
I plan for my soul to take flight