Watch me cry...Then watch me die.

I put on my smile,
& hide away my fears,
But when the night falls,
you'd see me cry crimson tears.

I show not a frown,
Tears kept inside,
Wait till sun down,
Then, tears I cant hide.

When you've been abused,
Treated like dirt,
Emotions mis-used,
You'd know all my hurt.

Leading myself on,
& trying to be happy everyday,
I cant do that anymore,
I cant live my life that way.

I cut, I wound, I lie,
I blame myself for what I do,
But the tears I cry,
Those are because of you.

You think I lead a good life,
You think that, cause you never saw this knife,
You will think of me now wont you!
You will remember my pain!
But is this what ill have to do?
Do I really have to slit a vain?...