I want to

I want to cut so bad,
make lines in my skin.
you people don't understand,
how hard it is to not give in.

I want to write suicide notes,
and say goodbye,
I want to hang and choke,
I just want to die.

I want to go away,
just be gone,
not only for today,
but my whole life long.

Of course these are not options,
because I need to be strong,
In both my words and actions,
I just feel like I don't belong.

*Don't worry, it's pretty old, just posted it though*