Looking back.....part one

I'm looking back and now i see
an ugly beast that is part of me
he was my friend for many years he gave me comfort when there were fears
he helped me through some troubled times
a closer friend you'd never find
for i was him and he was me
we were as close as could ever be
yet i didn't know him or think him there
but he went with me every where
he told me what to think and do
buy this go there its a part of you
its what you need to make you feel
love and comfort you need the deal
but soon i tired of his demanding
ways
he wanted more he was wasting my bays
but id given him power long ago
when i thought him friend and not a foe
but now i could see his ugly face
i was his slave i ran his race
how could he my own best friend
betray myself for days on end
i will quit never again
this i cried please make it end
yet over and over time and again
his part of me would always win