I'm alone now...

I don't miss him or maybe I do,
I used think about him all the time,
But those times have died.
Every moment and every minute I'm alone,
I get into a mental state I can't get out of.
First, I panic what am I supposed to think of?
Then, I get scared how am I supposed to live?
And how will I find a new love?
If he NEVER liked me, then who will?

I'm just a quiet, gentle girl not out-going person,
I feel like I was just stepped by a big strong shoe.
I'm crushed, broken in pieces, but glued onto the ground,
And I can't get up,
Even if time passes and some parts can get up,
The others remain glued on the ground,
Not being able to be found.

When I'm all alone in my room trying to sleep,
When I'm all alone in the steamy shower,
When I'm all alone waiting for my mom to come home,
When I'm all alone in the middle of no where,
Not knowing where to go...

I don't know what to do,
Where to go,
What to think of,
Wondering what's point of life.
Can anyone give me an answer?

In the beginning I thought that this'll pass,
But I can't even stand for a moment without breaking down.
Days passed and nothing happend,
Except...
My symptoms of increasing depression and self-esteem gettin lower.
For now no one can find a cure,
Feels like no one ever will...