Not fair to me

This is a letter my best friend wrote me
please comment

no i have fun every now and then but i think i am maturing more than i should be. i am a friend even if i do not show it but u have changed as well it seems like when we were younger life was easy and fun all u had to do is play and relax, trust me it did now its not so easy to relax. i understand how u feel shit sometimes i wonder if i even care for my self i do other people things and do to much at times but i get threw it then i realize okay am i being fare to myself. u know i am playing life as it goes but it is going faster than it normally does. and yeah i know i have not been fair to you and i understand that it just seems weird now when we hang out i feel awkward like the first time we met. and i think its cause we have not spent much time together when were around i feel u and cayla have a stronger relation and yeah i believe thats true and i understand, but during swim and cheer and school and work i made no time with you barely. and i made time with others. i spent time and spent the night at my friends house and i spent time with my boy friend. i understand thats not fair because your my best friend but to me our bffeaa is dieing and were just friends. thats my fault because when i have the chance to fix it i do not. i realized all this when i noticed u just stopped calling me. and yeah it was painful at first then i realized how i am treating you and its not right. its not right that i ignored u and spent our normal Saturday fun nights with Maddie and then Sundays with Maddie and Cody. but i guess were starting to go in different directions or something. Corrina i love you and will always care about you deeply. god i feel like i am breaking up with you.but as hard as this is to say i am sorry. i am sorry for having to tell you this and i am sorry that u have to read this, i am extremely sorry to tell you as i am writing this i am getting ready to go with Maddie hopefully. i know and understand i have changed but hanging out with you just is not the same. you are like a sister to me and will always be please do not stop being my friend. if it were never for you i would not be who i am today i would still be shy and not wanting to try new things. i would be a nobody but u made me become a somebody by making me realize my potentials. i cant imagine what i would be today if u never entered my life. i love you Corrina please do not stop ever being my friend i understand that its hard, and i know i am not being fair. i gotta go though parents calling. i love you Corrina.

this is really what she said to me and she calls me friend