How I Feel Inside

Of these twisted thoughts I fear
The beautifully entwined pain
Hiding from this world
Screaming at myself again

Blood streaming from my tattered wrists
Tears pouring from my hazel eyes
Thoughts spinning in my twisted mind
From within my broken smile the lies..

People try to see the reason
But I feel they must not know
Why these tears fall
Or why the blood continues to flow

I'd rather be alone
To face the pain and regret
I'd rather be alone
With the things my mind never forgets

Nobody understands the way I feel
Not even me..
I don't know whats to become of me any more
Tell me how I'm supposed to be

I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted
I'm sorry I cant be like you
I'm sorry I cant be perfect
I'm sorry you cant help me through

Just leave me alone in my world
I don't want you to see me cry
I don't want you to see my pain
I don't want you to see me die..

I'm already dead inside
From the darkness of my past
Already broken enough
From the pain that will always last

Don't try to fix me
Change I'll never do
Either like me the way I am
Or accept that I'm not like you

Why don't you just go away?
Why don't you try to understand?
Why cant you tell me whats wrong with me?
Why cant you give me your hand?..

If you want to help me
Cant you please take the hurt and pain?
Cant you please try to save me?
These feelings are driving me insane

My heart is so fragile and torn
I just want someone to know
How my heart and I feel inside
With the pain that will never go