Killing myself...

Rip me up inside,
Kill me hun because I cried.
I'm sorry I hid,
I'm sorry for what I did.

It wasn't my fault,
He never came to a halt.
Until he tired of it,
and I couldn't sit.

He made me scream,
I couldn't sleep, I couldn't dream.
I cried and cried.
Is he sorry that I didn't die?

I tried to push myself down the stairs,
but I knew there were too many people who would care.
Then the next day,
my world returned to the same gray.

Once again I tried to kill myself,
killing myself...
It seemed so easy,
but the thought of it just made me so uneasy.

I just wanted to let life go,
My heart had hit an all time low.
I couldn't bring myself to smile...
Did I make the right choice?...Is life really worth the while?