TO MY MUM (THE FCUKKER UPPER OF YOUTH)

I think of all the hate,
and how long ago i couldn't decide,
were abouts lays my fate,
and my unforgotten suicide,

no one understands what all of us go through,
I'm noticing so much lately it brings so much lose to me,
i cant decide what to do,
or even if i want to be me,

i hate you so much you ruined my life,
i decided only today that ill never forgive you,
and all of the strife,
I'm surprised i made it through,

don't call me your daughter or any other name,
i hope one day you might understand,
how what you said caused so much pain,
and then one day in this long journey Ive had i might ask you to hold my hand.