** i know it's bad i know it's gonna be horrible to anyone who reads this but please comment and maybe give me a little advise on this if you don't mind thanks**
The guy i want, i want so badly. I feel like he is the one for me but i cant have him. My best friend is the one who is the lucky one who has had this great guy for a year.I envy her so much cause she has the guy i have been waiting for my whole life. I just wanna kiss him and hold him in my arms but i cant. I want to take him home and make him mine forever but i cant. I couldn't do that to my gurl,my best friend of 14 years. I want him to be my first but i cant. I wish they never net and started dating cause now i suffer the consequences of never taking that chance with him a year ago. All i want is him but i can never have him.
