Not this way

I want to feel beautiful
for just once in my life
i want to feel loved
before i die

i don't want to be this way
depressed and alone
i don't want to feel scared
in the place i call home

i don't want to sit in my corner
crying, cutting, bleeding
i don't want to give up
but no one can hear my screaming

i don't want to throw up anymore
i don't want to starve myself to death
I'm sick of walking threw school
without any friends

i pray everyday
i just want it all to stop
i don't want to be this way...
...but we all cant have what we want...

* just a release........*