Breath of life

I am so lost in side
all i want to do is hide

all my friends have seem to gone
i cry at night till the break of don

i play a game of cat and mouse
never wanting to leave the house

i slice my wrist up to my chest
i know that my choice was not the best

i cry for loss of my last best friend
hoping in time my pain will mend

i hold my pain at the base
putting on my old fake face

i listen to the lies they try to tell
hoping all the more they go to hell

they try to tell me is just for fun
i said i want no more I'm done

they tear my heart with a searing knife
i hold my secret with my last breath of life

when i wake from this dream
I'm still there hanging form the beam

i look at the lives I've left behind
the look on their face tells me they don't mind

the death of me has brought no sorrow
i have no more life to borrow

i watch what were once true friends
laugh at my death once again

they say they loved me and they care
but the feelings of joy i can not bare

i got to where i feel i should be
bowing before God on one knee