Will I ever Be able to?

I was sitting thinking about when we were little and I smiled
Then I thought about now and how you are not here and a silent tear rolled down my face
Please God give him back just for one day, if not than a second
Just enough time to say everything I regret not saying
to feel his hug one last time
to see that smile everyone remembers
and so I can be grateful for him
and not take his presencse for granted
the only time I am okey is when I do no t think about it
but every now and then it creeps up and I need to let go.
Will I ever be able too?

***This is about one of my friends that I had known since kindergarden. He died on May 22 it has been 3 months.