Coward

I once was called a coward,
Because i am afraid of love.
I'm afraid of trusting someone,
Cuz you're the one I'm thinking of.

I can't get over what you did to me,
You broke my heart in two.
I can't forget the nights i cried,
And I'm not sure what to do.

I'm afraid that I'll be hurt again,
Just like all the times before.
I'm afraid of opening my heart,
I don't want it broken anymore.

I'm afraid to trust you well enough,
To give you my everything.
I may just be being selfish,
But it hurts too bad to bleed.

I can't count all the tears i cried,
The night i lost my heart.
You walked away and took it with you,
Now it is ripped apart.

A tear lies on my cheek at night,
And there's a pain deep in my soul.
Losing all my will to trust,
Is keeping me from being whole.

I can't go back to what i was,
But i can't stay the way i am now.
I'm a coward, but i was a fool,
I need to figure out what to do somehow.

I was a fool for ever believing you,
Now I'm a coward for being afraid.
I'm so afraid of what may happen,
I can't take anymore pain.

I've been forced to deal with all these things,
And i don't know what to do.
I hope that you are happy,
Cuz this is all because of you....

*~I know, it sucks. Sorry, i haven't been able to write lately.~*