Three...

After all of the pain I have caused,
Theres only three lives put on pause,
The same three people who always get hurt,
Then one who causes all,
He never plans to hurt your soul,
But he always is in control,
He said he was serious about this,
He said he wouldn't abandon us again,
So now I'm confused is another chance given,
Or again I go to the knife like last night,
I'm really confused and I'm trying to do best by everyone,
But for their happiness I have to lose mine,
So I'll say "no"
Then I will go,
Walk away from all the could have been,
Leave everyone with no fights,
Go back into night,
Where I belong,
Thought I was strong,
But I was wrong,
Cutting peoples hearts open,
But then I slipped and cut mine metophorically too,
And now I'm choosing,
I love him yes,
I need him yes,
I care about him yes,
I want to get away from it all yes.