My suicide note(gay rhymes)

Clasped in my hand is something i fear,
i open is slightly and down falls a tear

something to ease all the pain that I'm in,
I'm scared and alone, tired of being in this skin

i wrote down my feelings in a letter to my family,
they won't find it till late so theres no way to stop me

I'm still kind of unsure of whats running through my mind,
all i want is to get away from whats untrue and unkind

I'm at the age when you get lost in lies and can't help being confused,
it took a while, but i finally realized all of the lies were from you

i once dreamed about us together holding, touching, feeling,
but i realize now those dreams meant nothing

soon my family will know that all of this is because of you,
and they will hurt on the inside the way i do

my life is coming to an end at the hands of myself,
i will leave my suicide note on top of my lowest shelf

i swallow the pills, still unsure of whether this is right,
contemplating purging as the day breaks with new light

thoughts of life flow through my mind like the answers after a test,
as i drift away into a never-ending rest