Crimson Tears

A tear runs down my cheek
blood drips off my arm
what am i doing
I'm trying to win this war

the blood covers my sheets
as i sit on my bed
writing in my diary
the words repeating in my head

I'm screaming out loud
but no words leave my lips
i just silently cry
as i take hit after hit

my crimson tears fall
one after another
O god please
why do i even bother

i know I'm thankful to be alive
but i just feel so weak
sometimes i cry so hard
i can barley breathe

it hurts so bad
i guess I'm just going to take it all
so I'm sitting alone again
watching my crimson tears fall