Speechless

I'm not going to kill myself
That would only make me look weak
Although the thought has crossed my mind
I am stronger than that, and yet I'm at your feet

I'm groveling to you, and i don't see why
When all your really good at
Is making me cry
I thought you were the most beautiful thing
But you proved to me now
I'm was nothing but a fling

I can't concentrate on work, as your face is all i see
I'm starting to lose control
This has never been me

To let a man get into my body
And take every ounce of good
If i knew that this was to be our fate
Listen to my parents i would

When they said, he's to old for you
He's not into the things that you are
I just stuck my nose up at them
I believed i had all the power

And now I'm speechless
I don't have a word to say
Because internally I'm bleeding
Because once again you got your way

I'm fighting with my parents, I'm fighting with my friends
I am loosing everything, i need someone to depend on again
My eyes are sore from the burning of the tears that always leek
And now we don't make contact
I cant even speak

I'm speechless, at your mercy
You make me feel unworthy
I don't know what to do
Hopefully, soon I'll get over you