Blood and Tears

I cut my arm as if it isn't there
I scream, there's too much blood, I'm in despair
I press a towel to my wrist
The blood subsides, mirror meets fist
I'm so ashamed of what I've become
I hate myself, I turn and run
Every cut and every burn
Brings a brand new lesson to learn
All my friends and all my life
Have turned on me, I’ve got a knife
I can stop, I tell myself
But the truth is no one knows what I've felt
Even now, I write this to the drip of blood
I've lost everything, and everyone I loved
Reminiscing of everything he once was to me
But once he saw the scars he just let me be
I’ll pack the wound with salt and feel it bleed
There's something about this pain that I need
It started as one cut, fallowed by forty more
Words and pain fallen deep in this lore
Broken skin and broken heart
With my knife I cut me apart
I should never have played your game
I knew your feelings wouldn't stay the same
My blade can't judge me for what I do
When I'm alone in my room
Sometimes I show myself what its like not to breathe
Forget about air, it's not something I need
Forget about life, I lost mine long ago
And all I have left are these scars I try not to show
I had gone a whole month without a slash to the wrist
Then he said those words and gave me a final kiss
That day I cut so much I passed out in the tub
I'll stand on the edge and wait for someone to give me a shove
Or I won't wait at all and I'll just jump
Or pop some pills and get my stomach pumped
So many told me to be strong
But they turned on me and now are gone
I can't take this anymore
I'll cut and bleed behind locked doors
My eyes burn from crying all night
I try but I just can't win this fight
I'll dig myself an early grave
I'm just too different from how others behave

~Written In Blood~
By: Samantha

I just cant hold on...