The Lie I'm Living

I've fallen to the floor
You weren't here to catch me when I fall
Everyone is watching
I try to get up but all I can do is crawl

I cant help but think-
Think of the scars on my wrist
I wish I'd never hurt you
But my knife gives a bloody kiss

Theres nothing to do now
Its too late to turn back
I love you and want you
But my life is so far off track

You've always loved me for who I am
You've never said I wasn't good enough
But now as life slips away
I know your life without me wont be so rough

You wont have to worry about my suicidal tendencies
You wont have to pretend to care
No matter how much I love you
Your feelings will never be there

I cant live without you
but you have fallen for my fake
She isn't the real me
I gave you what you'd take

Now I want to take it all back
Because you didn't know the real me
You love everything I hate
You love everything I'll never be

Its amazing what people can do
When they really want to die
And now that these feelings are killing me
I cant stop living a lie

There are other girls for you
Not dressed in black and masked
But theres one thing you said
Theres one thing you asked

You asked why I wasn't honest
Because you had seen right through the lie
And I told you I loved you too much
For you to watch me die

~Written In Blood~