I walk in disbelieve
not knowing what to do
i cannot take this much
when i want it not to be true
i hold my head up
and act as happy as i can
i don't know how many people
really know how i feel
they say they understand
and they will be there for me
but how can they know
how can they see
they say they know
i can tell they don't
they don't know how to help me
and i know they wont
i hold my head
telling everyone I'm fine
i cross my ways
knowing just to give it time
i don't know how
to act in front of everyone
if i act to happy what will they think
but i don't want sympathy whats done is done
i want to show
how much pain and hurt I'm in
but i want them not to worry
cause of that simple grin
but the emotion i have
built up inside
its sitting and waiting
trying to hide itself
so i keep my head
held up as far as it can go
learning new things everyday
taking things slow
i walk away
from anything i have not said yet
i kill my chances
of ever going back
they don't know
how much I'm in for
they think the ride will be easy
but i know it wont
I'm a product of a divorce
and i don't want to be
why now why my first week of high school
but its happening and theres noting i can do
so i hold my head high
crying in the inside
while everyone doesn't suspect a thing
i write silently
to help me cope
but they don't know the whole thing
and they never will
