Im The Negatives, Will You Be My Positives?

I'm short
I'm fat
I'm ugly
I'm depressed
I'm a loser
I'm a freak
my hair is short
and I'm called a guy
and I complain a lot
I'm very self conscious
I'm immature
I dont like to smile
I play with toy guns
I listen to emo screamo music
I hate my parents sometimes
I'm very negative
I'm lonely
I miss you
I'm hated by many
I'm made fun of a lot
I wear tattered jeans
I love my cons
I have few friends
The ones I have are just as dumb as me
I cry easily
I'm very emotional
i make friends easy, but then they desert me
its easy to break my heart
and it happens way to often
I'm different
I'm a geek
I'm not cool
I dont skate well
You tell me im beautiful but I dont believe you
Even though youre the only one whos ever actually told me that
I hide inside myself
My smiles are mostly fake
Im emo and people hate it
I wear lots of black
And people call me goth
Dont label me
Im not for sale
Im his loser
Nobody elses
Call me a loser and die
Im shy at first
But after an hour u cant shut me up
I dont think I deserve him
He deserves someone way better
Im sick of falling for guys
That never fall back
The music I listen to depresses me more sometimes
But music is my life
My favorite bands seem to know me best
With words I can relate
I write a lot of stories
They suck miserably
My poetry sits among piles of papers
Waiting to be read..cos its s h i t t y
I cant stand myself
I dont know why
I want to get away
So I dont have to hide
I may seem happy
And hyper all the time
It just hides me away
Of how I really feel inside
My eyes mask my pain
And my smiles hide my tears
I just want to be loved
And to know how it feels
Im dumb
i get yelled at a lot
im scared of just about everything
clowns
feet
dark
being alone
that gizmo thing at the Renaissance Fair
spiders
bugs
im paranoid
I fall a lot
Im too random
Nothing I say comes out right
People hold things against me
I dont like to think
This gets me no where
I really only think of you
And I wonder if you think of me too
My friends think im retarded
And my family thinks im crazy
No body takes me seriously
As you can tell today is one of my bad days
The song ride the wings of pestilence is giving me ideas
"ill be hiding in the shadows ill be waiting in the dark, to drive this blade straight through your heart, ill drag your body to the car while blood races down my arm
so yeah...dont mess with me
b i t c h e s
im easily p i s s e d off
ive only smiled twice today so far
when I was watching my baby cousin
and the whole time I was talking to you
im a sucker for acoustic
people dislike me because my taste in music
they say it sucks a s s
I say screw you
You dont have to listen to it if you dont want to
I stutter when im nervous
And when I dont say anything
its because I dont know what to say
I bet if I died
Or if I disappeared
Few would notice
Fewer would care
i told you im negative
I said I was insecure
And youll like me less
After you read this I fear
But I wanted to show you
What im really like
And after all this
You like me all the same
If nothing has changed
Then im yours for sure
Youre just the boy im looking for