So you ask-why do I act the way I do? Why do I keep to myself? Well you see, I am all I can trust. I look back and realize that the support I used to see in your eyes for me is no longer there. Instead, my heart is filled with the overwhelming feeling of betrayal and pain. You see, I felt pain before, but not the pain I felt when our friendship ended the way it did. I spent so much time asking why? Why did some guy come between us? Why did you choose to hurt me the way you did? Why do you continue to hurt me? But I now realize that it is no longer important. I would never claim to be perfect, but I admitted my faults. Why can't you admit yours? When there was an issue, I confided in you-I trusted in you. For what? For you to hurt me like everyone else?
I have tried to hold onto the past, the good memories-hoping that when I opened my eyes, this would all be a dream. The truth is, I have nothing to hold onto any longer. I never wanted to be Difficult; I just find it hard to even speak to you-to fight the tears that fill my eyes whenever I think of you.
So why do I act the way I do? This is me letting go-breaking away from the people I allowed to cause me pain. I don't hate you- I will thank you in the long run for making me into a stronger person. Still, a huge part of me wishes things could be different, but for now, I need to release the pain...
