Bipolar-ish feelings

I'm sitting here on my bed
repeating over and over every word that was said
every lie killed apart of me inside
the hurt i can no longer hide
And as i lie here in bed
Every memory of that day flashes threw my head
But for some reason I still find myself thinking of you
In everything I do
Somehow I can never prove
To myself that I'm completely over you
You did me wrong
I keep telling myself I've got to move
Your going, going your gone
...But then I hear our song
If I had really moved on
Then what is this I'm still holding on
No matter what I do
I cant stop thinking about you
I think of how you hurt me and I began to shed a tear
But even then I'm still wishing you were right here
That's it I'm shutting the door
I cant take this any more
This isn't what I'm looking for
I'm not willing to be pushed around getting my heart torn
But without you my life became a boar
I found myself crying upon the floor
Even tho my heart you tore
Every knock on the door
I hoped to find the one I adore
But I couldn't go on without you knowing how I feel
But don't worry about me I'm sure my heart will heal
I've got to face reality
I've got to suck it up and deal
Each day I think of you more
Don't cut the wings we once soared
Even though you pierced my heart and made me bleed
I just have to leave
and walk out the door