Losing Grip

Remembering what you once said,
"We'll spend the days together, just relaxing, having fun"
Supposed to see you more,
But instead seeing you less,
As I'm here on my own,
I stop to wonder, do you even realize I exist?
I cry to myself as I think of ways for me to change,
Maybe if I changed my image,
Or my views,
You might want to see me more than you do.
All I want is to feel your arms around me tightly,
To wipe these tears from my eyes I'm crying.
We used to be so close,
But as each day turns to night,
I realize more and more that I'm losing grip.
Clutching on to you so desperately,
Wanting you to stay,
But it seems the more I try to hold on to you,
The more you run away.
Acting to people around me,
Making out my life is OK,
But on my own I can no longer pretend,
As I lie on my bed and gently tears shed.
You're not here anymore,
My fears they begin to rise,
You're not here to fight them away.
There is nothing I wouldn't do for you,
Just to have you here with me by my side,
I long to hear those three words from your lips,
Tell me once again I'm the girl you still want, for now and forever more.
You are the only guy I ever want to love,
The only guy I've ever dreamed of,
Holding the key to my heart,
Making me yearn for you more and more.
With just a look in my direction,
You can make me feel so weak,
Give me satisfaction.
I can't keep on telling myself you still care,
I can't carry on the day and pretend to ignore,
I need you once more.
Without you in my life,
My world would fail to spin,
It stands still when you go away.
Thinking of the laughs we've shared,
Remembering how we used to be.
Maybe its time for me to set you free,
If its love, then perhaps you'll come back to me?