Forever Afraid

Confused, lost, and alone,
Can't make it on my own.
No hands to hold,
Every touch is cold.
Walking in a nightmare,
My skin feels bare.
Feeling myself freeze,
Praying for a warm breeze.
Searching for solid ground,
But only falling down.
Too dark to see,
What lies ahead of me.
Afraid to move on,
But the past is gone.
Can't make it out alive,
Failing to survive.
Looking for some one,
Need to feel the sun.
The darkness burns,
I'm making wrong turns.
No way out,
Full of doubt.
I'm lost inside,
And horrified.
I'm not alright,
Can't make it right.
No going back,
Surrounded by black.
Lost in my head,
Could I be dead?
Need to awaken,
I feel myself shaking.
Has to be a dream,
Only silent screams.
Losing control,
Killing my soul.
Need a hand,
Can't understand.
Where's the end?
Trying to pretend.
I feel fine,
Not lost in time.
Wear a smile,
Not on trial.
Open my eyes,
No surprise.
Still can't see,
What's in front of me.
The darkness won't fade,
Forever afraid.

*wrote it while sitting on the kitchen floor just thinking about everything.