You, YOU, You

I've lost something
I can never replace
I did something
I can never erase

God damn you
God damn you fate
God damn your sense of humour
God damn its too late

I hate this blade
I hate this gun
I hate this feeling
I hate what I've done

I am now a sinner
I am no longer a saint
I am now a killer
I am at the devils gate

I used a weapon
I used his life
I used my anger
I used my strife

I killed a man
I killed another
I killed myself
I killed my own brother

I used to love you
I used to care
I used to be sane
I used to be aware

You told me lies
You told me wrong
You told me happily
You told me I belong

Your death was coming
Your death on my hands
Your death was inevitable
Your death was my command

You lied to me
You lied about your choice
You lied about us
You lied with my voice

I have killed my brother
And next my dad
Then onto my myself
I'm a child of the damned