Passing Time

I guess you could say I miss you
Because whenever you're not there
I count every heartbeat of my own
And curl the ends of my hair.

Yes, I suppose I once loved you
And I guess I do still
But it's hard to love with nothing
Yet with everything you kill.

It's not like I'm not breathing
Iâ??m just taking my own time
By which I pray you'll return
Because you're always on my mind.

No, I think I'm over you
I just think I'm jealous of her
Do you really think she's the one
Or that she's going to be better?

Don't you know I'm trying to be strong
But my heart is made of steel
You dented it once and now I'm afraid
Of the pain you made me feel.

Yes, the pain was worth it
Just to be told that someone cared
That I was beautiful in your eyes
And there's nothing wrong with being scared.

I haven't smiled like that day
When you said "I love you"
I don't know whether I ever will again
Or if I even want to.

I remember I was so crazy
How could you have loved me then?
I mean, I know that you're over me
But do you suppose you could ever love me again?

Your eyes burn their way into my thoughts
It hurts me that you're gone
I want more than anything to make you smile
And know that you are strong.

I dream of you so often
Though no amount of pictures can replace your face
I want to wrap my arms around you
And hold you to my waist.

Now, can't you see I'm healing?
I said I'm doing just fine.
Yes, I suppose I still love you
But I'm just trying to pass the time.

--Dedicated to Zac. I will ALWAYS love you and it\'s nothing I can help.--