Going Numb

I look around and all i see is black
around me is as dark as night
at this rate my life will never get back on track
everything around me is drifting away from my sight
the erge inside of me is getting stronger
i feel that soon i will burst
i dont think i can control it any longer
my life is going down and I'm being submerged
i dont know how much longer i will be able to hide this feeling
it's like all my anger,fears,pain,scars,past all in one ball
all my feelings are clashing
it's becoming one feeling, theres just no end to it all
and the thoughts in my head are insane
the thoughts to cut, to end my life
it's becoming harder to contain
and to keep my hands away from that knife
what kind of game is this "love"
how are we supposed to know what is real
what is the meaning, the meaning of.....
this love i feel
to me it's nothing but a curse
it's spreads its my all
this love has no reverse
it's something i cant control
i care and love way to much
i care for those that our out of reach
and love those i cannot touch
i preach to them and i try to teach
there is just no end
it's continues on and on
there is no time for my wounds to mend
every second something else goes wrong
i want to take those pills and feel them change me
feel them take over and then soon to come
u all will see
as i finally go NUMB!