I Dont Know

I don't know whats happiness
I don't know whats sorrow
I don't know whats love
I don't know about tomorrow

I don't know...because I haven't experienced either in a very long time
I don't remember looking around the world with a smile on my face
I don't remember crying tears of joy
Infact,I don't remember crying tears at all!

I don't know for how long it will go on
I don't know if it will ever end
I don't know if ill ever get rid of the enemies
I don't know if Ill ever have a friend

I don't know if Ill drown or Ill swim
I don't know if Ill lose or Ill win
I don't know what life holds for me
i don't want life to just let me be

Whatever it is thats got to happen to me
shouldn't wait any longer
Coz I don't know if I can wait that long
Theres no way I'm getting stronger

The time has come Mum,
please don't cry
I wish Id loved you more
I wish you'd let me try

Tell dad to be strong
tell him ill always be there
Tell him Ill always love him
I know he always cared

Tell sister I always loved her
Never meant the insults I said
Tell her to lighten her heart
And let the love spread

Tell my aunt and Grandma
they were the only ones who loved me
I cherished every moment spent with them
But this is how its got to be

Goodbye,mum
Its time to go
took up alot of your time
But now my soul is beginning to flow