I'm never leaving her even if she hates me

My soul and I still watch her there,
The way she crys and tried to care,
The way I tore her apart,
Stole and stood on her heart,
The way I stole her dignity,
And still expected us to be,
Friends with a sorry and a tear,
That she'd still listen to my fear,
But now I know I went to far,
I respect her decision I crossed the bar,
I show her the knife again,
And watched as the blood did drain,
My nightmares were that she would die,
Because of the fact I didn't try,
I can't help her, that I know,
But still I cannot let her go,
And though she cannot realise I care,
By her side will be me right there,
For though not a friend I will be,
Something she can't get rid of but cannot see