That's Life

Inside I'm crying
can't anyone see that I'm dying
when I say I'm happy
can't anyone see that I'm lying

I'm dying inside
I can't live with this life
I can't take this anymore
I wish I could just die

I write all kinds of poems
about my old homes
where I used to be tortured
I just want to be alone

have you ever wanted so bad
to get back what you once had
to go back before you cut
and to never again be sad

I don't want to go to school
it's so boring and un-cool
I should drop out I thought
but oh boy was I a fool

I got pregnant when I was 16
and I was forced to have the baby
I didn't think it was possible
but my baby had become a part of me

my father is so mean
he doesn't love me
I wish he would just go away
and just let me be

I know my mom cares
but having my way is very rare
it's better than where I came from
but I would love to get away from here

I want to be alone
I don't want my scars to show
I want to get away from everybody
I want to quit feeling so low

I want to be the me that I like
I don't want to be the me that I despise
I want to do my best
and stop living a tortured life

I want you to be my friend
until the very end
I want to help you with everything
I'll help you with anything that I can

to sum this up
this is my life, yeah, it's tough
but I'm used to the pain
even though I only have scars to gain

I hate where I am and want to get away
I hate the fact that I'm living today
I want to die I want to scream
don't we all want life to go our way