Scared I\'ll Lose You

I don't know how much more I can take,
I've been through enough.
By your side the whole way,
And now you do this to me.
I know I would have been disturbed,
Now torn that you couldn't tell me.

You're not the same as you used to be,
I don't get why you think this is cool?
The other stuff, I could just handle that,
But this, it's going too far.
I don't want you to feel you're shut out,
I want to help you; I'm your friend.

Slowly losing connection,
We're not as happy as before.
I don't want to lose you,
But I know I'll have to leave you.
I don't want to, but it's bringing me down,
And I don't know what to do.

Not giving up, don't say that,
I tried to help; you wouldn't let me.
Suffering in silence, I cry myself to sleep,
I don't know what to say to you.
Go ahead; scare me again,
Not like you would care would you?

I don't know where this is headed, scared that
This will be the end of our friendship.