If only............

If only I could explain what is going on,
Going on in my head and my heart,
I wish this wouldn't happen,
I hate when my world falls apart,
It isn't anyone's fault,
It's this problem of mine,
I wish I could run away and leave all this misery behind!
I hate this world that never seems happy,
Or worth my time,
None of this is worth a dime,
I hate to cry,
But it something I do so often,
I should be used to it by now,
But I can't be,
I'm not,
I don't know what to do,
I have so much on my mind,
It's making me sick,
I don't know what to do,
I just wanna let go,
But I can't,
Can't let go of my fears,
Or let go of these tears,
They are constantly there,
Threatening to fall,
But I can't take it,
I hold up a wall,
I can't let go,
Can't let you see me cry,
Can't let you know my pain,
Can't let you see the rain,
You can't know that I am in pain,
Can't know that I hurt everday,
A pain no one would understand,
It's mental,
Emotional,
It turns physical!
I need some help but I don't want anyone to talk to,
I don't want anyone to know how I feel,
I don't want anyone to see me cry,
Or have to feel my pain,
I wanna be alone,
If only I could let go,
If only I could run,
If only I could cry,
If only I could just let me be yours,
And allow you to be mine!
If only........

Hey ya'll this is just my feelings, I know this poem sucks but if you could do me a favor and vote or comment it would be much appreciated! Thanks

Brooke