Untitled Avoidance

My hands were shaking, and yes I saw you, standing there
but when our eyes met, mine quickly darted elsewhere.
I don't want you to reveal my true self,
for when our eyes lock, the lies just melt.

Were not bumping into each other like we used to,
you would think I'm avoiding you.
But I admit, I was only waiting for you to look away.
Just to watch the back of your head,
as I scramble for words to say.

I remember those silly conversations,
and I'm begging to have back all those days we wasted
don't remind me of that pitiful puddle of pity
that I constantly tried to drown you in.

My palms were sweaty, and I saw you, eating by yourself.
Scanning the crowd for a familiar face.
Our eyes met, and regret is what I felt.
But I point at the wall behind you,
to show I'm looking at something else.

But honestly, the only thing I need to see is you..
seeing me, the only thing to save me.
You're breaking down my walls, and I'm afraid of your invade.
Yet it's the only thing to get me through today.

But then I'll remember all those words we've said...
And I won't look at you face again.

You'll remind me of that -pitiful- me.
That bloody mess, I never wanted you to see.