Should i die??

Why don't you just kill me now
that i already feel dead
with all this pain in my life
i can't think but dread
i know i should try to figure things out
but i just can't think straight
i know its not worth dying over
but i cant help to think
what my life will be like without you here
but instead i begin to brake
i loved our good times together
and i should wait
and see if i find someone else to have good memorys with
but i just don't know what to do
this is all to painful to think of
so i feel my life isn't worth living
but i know down in my heart it is worth everything to be alive....