Almost lost, almost gone. You almost took your life away. Because of what three people did, you thought it was the right way.
People hating, people leaving. Alway wanting you to go. Scott, Sam and I started it. Still I don't know why.
I think it all started April 23. It was Sam's surprise 13 birthday party.We were all having fun, but it would get much worse.
We all made stupid choices. Me, you and Scott decided to drink. Everyone else stood around in disbelief.
Scott took a sip. I did you. You got the bottle and drank more then you think. Me and Scott were fine, but you were and little drunk.
Everything was fine between us until James became a part of it too. We both started fighting. I didn't know what to do.
Eventually we made up. I said I'd forgive you so. I hugged you and said sorry, but my mind was saying no.
For weeks apon end we blamed you for making her mad.Even though we were to blame too. Scott and i pushed you away, blaming our mistakes on you.
You took it for almost a month and then one more time, we told you to go, to leave us behind.
Then on Sunday, May 15, you did something you though was right. You tried to end your misery, really leave us behind. Two days you spent at the hospital, probably hating me more each hour.
On May 18, I got called down to the office. I told the story bit by bit. I said Sam, Scott and I turned against you.
Finally to the Principle, councilor and two teachers, the story was out. We told them we were under-aged drinking and we blamed you for wreaking the party.
Then you told us what you did that put you in the hospital."I took an overdose of pills" you said trying to hold back the tears.
Sam and I started crying. Scott looked ashamed. All i could think was "Thank God she's safe."
"I'm sorry" I cried " i want to take it all back I'll make it up to you i swear."
you shook your head no. "I can't be friends with you anymore."
I sit at home now thinking i almost lost my best friend. Guilt and Anger surrounds me as i say to myself "Why was i so stupid" and start to cry.
All i want you to know Jessica is, i still got your back, even though we're not friends.
I almost lost a friend, Almost gone to the very end.
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Sorry this is so long. It's true, this story. Don't blame your mistakes on your friends if you did the same thing. Don't blame them for anything, They're to special to be lost.
