XxYear later and still missin youxX

I lay here
in my bed.
with pillow
clenched closed

eyes swollen
form all my cries
I don't know how much
longer i can go on like this

Theres no one
here to wipe my tears
and tell me to
have no fears

Its been really hard
losing you
you have no idea
of all the emotions you've caused

I've decided not
to be angry
I'm sure God has
a good reason for taking you

But knowing this
doesn't stop the pain
I don't know if I'll ever be
able to move on

I thought i was in love
before, but when i meet
you, all those other
guys where nothing to you

You where everything to me
i loved this is so
true, you are the
father of my daughter.

It will be a year tomorrow
one year since that horrible night
not one day has passed and
i haven't caught my self saying

What if
or how come
or thinking of ways i could
have maybe stopped you.....

~*this is true, its about my ex-boyfriend he died because he was in a car wreck well please vote and comment it would really mean a lot*~