You look at me and think, "Wow! She's so happy."
You think I am the happiest person ever, that I
love life and that nothing ever goes wrong.
Maybe you should check again...
Look at me, look harder, look deeper.
Why can't any on you see the hurt and the pain?!
I feel like I'm hiding behind a blanket, a blanket
of laughs and smiles...
I wish you people would stop telling me I'm "so happy",
because I'm not. You just can't see the tears I cry,
and the screams I scream at night.
Each and every night...
I'm not Lil Miss Perfect, I do make mistakes,
I'm sorry! I don't know why none of you can't
see that. Would someone just tell me it's ok?
That it's ok to hurt and cry...
I'm sorry I ever disappointed any of you.
Maybe one day you will see what it's like to hurt.
What it's like to wake up every morning and say to
yourself "Well, time to be someone I'm not."
I'm not happy, I'm not perfect. And I just can't help it.
I wish I was, so I could please all of you,
but I'm not. And I never will be.
Yet, one day when I'm not here, you'll see that.
