Happiness is all I ask for.

Once again I let my heart take over
The smarter half of me lost
I cant keep doing this
Letting my self brake my own heart
Which is stupid.
The one time I think I have done something smart
It just turned out to be another stupid move
I cant hold the tears back much longer
I feel like I'm running out of excuses
Running out of dumb ideas
i just wish i could start over
I wish I never fell for you in the first place
Now I'm just at that dead end
where boys always leave me
I want to be done with love all together
there is no point
It just leaves you heartbroken
Well I got myself into this mess
and I don't know how to get out
I just wish I had someone to run to
Someone I can cry to
I have no one
No one to talk to
No one to cheer me up
I have friends
But I spend more time trying to cheer them up
I'm a mess and I have no one to clean me up
I just want to cry
I just want to spill my guts
and I need to tell someone how I really feel
All my feelings just bawling up
and I feel like I'm gonna burst
I need to run
Run so far away
I need to run to his arms
Thats where I'm home
I'm safe
I'm loved
No one will ever love me like he did
But like everyone else
he just pushed me to the curb
I'm so tired of braking my own heart
I'm so tired of being stupid
I just wish I could be someone else
I just wish I could be frihkin HAPPY!