In love with a friend

Have you ever had a feeling,
That just doesn't go away,
Have you ever had a feeling,
That just seems to stay,

Well i have one,
It hasn't left in years,
I have one,
And I'm afraid of my own fears,

This is a feeling a fear and sad,
This is a feeling that can sometimes make me glad,
But overall it spins a turns,
Sometimes my heart even burns,

This feeling is called love,
It circles around me,
This feeling is called pain,
And I'm afraid it will deceive me,

This love is a friend,
And it can only lead to bad,
I know this because,
In the past it made me mad,

Last time it was here,
I told it to go away,
I told you my feelings,
Just to see what you would say,

Nothing went as planned,
and it all went wrong,
But i had to do something,
to fix my problem,

What to you do,
When your stuck between two walls,
I know what I Do,
I Lie, Be-for i fall,

I lied to you,
I said it was alright,
That my feelings were gone,
I put up a small fight,

The Truth is,
I was lieing to myself,
Not just you,
But me, My own self,

I believed me,
yes i did,
i even had a crush,
it wasn't on you though,
It was only a near rush,

But sooner or later,
I came to understand,
That all that i wanted,
Was you,
in my Right hand,

So Feeling Feeling go away,
Please Oh Please,
Don't Ruin my day,

And even more than that,
Don't ruin my friendship.