Permanent Wither

A swipe of the marker,
Imprint, a picture of me.
Black and bloodied,
Scarred, I have no hope.
I'm to blame of the vision,
The sight that haunts me.

Hair torn to pieces,
Eyes punched and deformed.
Memories will stay with me forever,
Just the same as the scars.
Drugs or whatever,
I'm still influenced.

Lonesome and broken,
I don't feel right in this skin.
Scaly and just not the norm,
I want out, now please.
Tied around my neck,
Pull the rope tight.

No circulation, brain stop dead,
I can't turn back now.
I don't feel like I'm strong enough,
With the pain that was put in front of me.
Hanging in the wardrobe,
Dangling there, so hopelessly.

Too late to save me,
I didn'twant you to care.
I'll miss you so much,
And you know that.
I didn't want to leave,
But I didn't fit right into this life.

The picture of how I was created,
It couldn't be re-painted.
I couldn't have erased the mistakes,
Or change the decisions I undertook.
The only good thing was you,
My prince that kissed me goodbye.

I didn't get to say goodbye,
And no one really understood why.
Questions asked of me,
Was it depression or attention?
A mark left in yours, and mine too,
Lives changed forever with one simple knot.

Embedded into all memory,
I can't come back now.
Stupid thing, permanent solution,
To a temporary problem.
I didn't have the chance to scream,
Now I'm left to wither away.

Cuts and bruises will fade,
The suicide, taking of my life is on going.
Forever. Xx