Whats Wrong

Every time I look at you,
My eyes fill with tears.
What has overcome me?
All these different fears.

We seem to argue a lot,
And have endless fights.
I dont know what to do now,
Nothing seems right.

Everything I do,
Something goes wrong.
This needs to stop soon,
It has been too long.

I go up in my room,
I sit on my bed.
I take a razor, cut my wrists,
And hope to soon be dead.

I cant express my feelings,
Without you getting mad.
Maybe someday you will see,
That deep down I am sad.

You brag to me and all my friends,
Everything you do.
I tell you what I accomplished,
You tell me to go screw.

You make me make tough decisions,
Things I dont understand.
I want you to help me up,
Someday lend a helping hand.

So many words we say,
Nothing that is true.
It just makes me feel worse,
I dont know what to do.

You say think that I am crazy,
You say that I am weird.
You say thats not a bad thing,
But that is what you feared.

I am sitting here,
Thinking about my mistake.
Why was I your friend?
Every story was fake.

You let me down,
And left me there.
I wonder why.
Did you care?

I think of my next move,
Sitting here on my bed.
Holding the razor in my hand,
And hoping to soon be dead.