Im in love

I cant label you and put you aside. I cant even find the words to say hi, Yet Im asking myself if Im in love .
I feel so stupid for this, but yet I cant think of anything other. Why is it so easy to help everyone with their
problems but when it comes to me Im speechless and lost. I wanna cry because I cant think of what to do Im so confused.
One minute I wanna believe I love you, then the next I think that it couldnt
possibly be true.`` Who am I kiddin , a girl like me with a guy like you ``Then
I get mad and blame myself for all thats happened yet I still cant move on.
Sometimes I sit alone in my bed and daydream about my life to be, a life that
involves you and me. A life that involves you and me together forever as
if we were meant to be. Sometimes I picture us together in love and I think
to myself that thats whats gonna come out of all this. Then I question if youll be happy with me.
Sometimes Im so sure well be together that Im positive youll be my first.
I see it happening not in detail, but you get the hints.
Thats how serious I am when I say I see us in love and together for a long time .
but the patience is hard to maintain, and then I ask myself if , Im so sure that thisll be the future ,
What if thats Gods plan, but thats a scary question and some questions that are even scarier are,
What if this whole thought about my life is a fraud?
What if well never be together? What if Its not meant to be?
What do I do then?
Who will I love?