Alone In My Misery

My mind is so confused,
I don't know how I feel,
2 many things 2 make me wonder,
make me 2nd guess what is real.

And when I think I've got it,
I'm 2nd guessing again,
all this back and forth,
is driving me insane.

But now your happy with your gf,
and I should be happy 4 u,
but all I keep thinking about,
is those night we used to screw.

But I still couldn't make up my mind,
it is supposed 2 hurt this bad,
when you know u've lost something,
u never even had?

Maybe its just the green seed of jealously,
not the crack of a broken heart,
when I c u 2 together,
and u refer 2 her as sweet heart.

But whatever it is it hurts,
2 c u 2 so close,
but I guess in the game of heartache,
I haven't had a large enough dose.

So I'll keep my mouth shut when I c u,
and smile when u hold her hand,
but don't make me look in2 ur eyes,
when the truth is what u demand.

Just let me suffer in silence,
it will b easier on us all,
when u let me hide myself,
behind my self-made wall.

Dont break it down 2 c me,
cause I'll just run back 2 u,
and that right now is the last thing,
that u or I want to do.

Just let me write through my tears,
& hopefully u will forgive me 1 day,
cause this right now is something,
I felt I needed 2 say.

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