Never...

I relive my childhood everynight.
In my eyes I do nothing right.
I wish I could go back to the start.
When nothing fell apart.
When I was happy to be alive.
But when I was with you a part of me died.
And there was nothing you could say.
To make this feeling go away.
The memories that I have to relive.
After all that you want me to forgive.
Night after night getting beat.
I found the answers were in my feet.
I ran in the wind and rain.
Just to escape my pain.
Something you couldn't stop.
Something that you helped cause.
Do me a favor and don't mistake your beer for my nightmare's.
Because god knows you weren't ever there.
There was something I didn't know.
I didn't know that you could sink so low.
You gave up your kids after all that pain.
And then we were marked with disdain.
I missed being happy.
When it just me and my mommy.
I loved you always and forever.
Now I'll love you again, never...