The ties that bind...

Living a life of violence.
Has left me in utter silence.
All because of my childhood.
Something that wasn't all that good.
Nights that kill me over and over again.
It reminds me of how I lived my life then.
Peice's of my past.
Always seem to last.
I can't keep fighting this hatred.
On a childhood that was wasted.
My best years.
Are remembered in tears.
Tears of pain that won't go away.
I still have them to this day.
I spent my life in search of a better lifestyle.
Sure, it took alittle while.
But atleast now I can smile.
This is something you couldn't do.
Even now that it's just you.
I'm sorry mom, I couldn't be.
A better me.
Or a better you.
After all the things that I've been through.
Memories bring my life to a halt.
Time after time you say it's my fault.
Because of me, you couldn't live your life the way you want.
I gave you all that I've got.
I can't do that anymore.
Not when I see my childhood dead on the floor.
I found myself alone.
Left to fend for my own.
And my two beatiful girls.
They are my world.
I love them with all my heart.
But you had to tear us apart.
I love you too.
But after everything I've been through.
I can't do it one more time.
Now I have a future and it's all mine.
Because of you I live blind.
With ties that bind...