My Story (Long)

First glance and my heart stopped
All my thoughts where in a daze
You looked liked an Angel in my eyes
One that I let takes my heart away

There was another I had
By my side when I looked in your eyes
And the person who I said I loved
Escaped me when your Heaven walked to me

Some days I would try and run
From your eyes and voice
For I already had someone
And these thoughts were killing it

But your words took me away
Far away from the person I had loved
I stumbled towards you with your looks
And left my lover behind

You took my heart to a place I habe never seen
A place where I learned things about me
Things I did not think I could be
And here my heart grow so huge for you

Everyday I loved you more
Even the days you were gone
Each week that pasted us by
Was I week I always adored

Months seemed to pass by
The love we had was so great
Nothing could stand in our way
Until a door shut in my face

A door that stood tall; stood firm
Said, 'This Angel is a lie'
I stood at the door with a key
The door said 'I still love thee'

'And here lies the key to heaven
The key to continue your stumble
Into the world of love you had'
I stood and tears came inside me

Tears dropped in my hand
This key swam in my sorrow
The heaven I was in was
Just a cover for the Hidden hell

The love I had was always temporary
The heaven I was in was always hell
The future I had imagined was always fiction
And you were never my Angel.

Yet the confusion was said false
That the heaven was always heaven
That the love was always eternal
Yet the key still lay in my hands

This key was always with me
Yet never truly looked upon
Till the door stood tall before me
Now this key is the choose with me

Opening the door to continue my 'heaven'
The key I had will be left behind
This key that knows all my pain
Yet never faulted or abounded me

The key was not only the key to this door
But also to my heart or my escape
It stayed by me and heard my cries
It stayed when my Heaven rung Hell upon it

The door stood and pleaded to me
But behind the door I did not know
Was it going to be the heaven I knew?
Or the lies in which I did not know

To my knees I fell crying
Before the Door
Before the Key
The choices I had before me

The love I had wanted to leap again
Run into the doors and forget
All the pain it gave me
All the tears I cried for the lies it gave me

My choice...
I did not believe
What my voice said
I left... My Heaven

I kissed my faded Angel
I told her 'No more.'
My heart is to sore
To continue this anymore

My heart is in pieces
And the pain I can not endure
This love I will always have
Just can not last anymore

I hold tight to this key
The Key that is my friend
Whole listened to my cries
And never once left me behind

This key I keep held close to me
And wait for the day that
It unlocks my heart
And the Key will form

Turn into the beauty she is
The key that was always my friend
And now this key she seems more
Always there and I never noticed before

My heart still burns for the Angel
And the journey ahead seems for
But I walk along with the key in my hand
A step at a time to forget the heaven I had

The love I had will fade away
And I pray my heart
Will learn
To love again