A tear not shown

This tear you might think
is falling down of mine
falling so perfectly
that i am fine

this tear will fall till i understand
it should fall silently at night
so its hard to hear
this hurt and broken tear.

this tear is how i live my life
that tear that you told me to cry
its how to keep myself sane
it would take away your pain

this tear you believe
i me hurting for now
my therapy, my work
this tear so beautiful

this tear is not what you thing
a beautiful twist it has
it works twice as good
it is my therapy from the past

this tear is different
its not cried or not shown
this tear is thicker, its helps me so
its a quiet cry for help

this tear is harder to cry
harder to release
this tear is blood
from beneath the problem
it starts from hell
and ends me